Ushering the new year didn't really feel like it normally would. No look backs on how 2011 was and no real what-do-i-look-forward-to moments... Honestly, i feel like i'm stuck in a cycle of just going through each day, with the many things I had to do. There are rare moments when i think i get a breather, but they don't really last. Unlike before when the weekend provides the much needed time for you to re-energize yourself for the week ahead - well, that's not how it goes for me anymore.
I'm not really sure why.
Is it because I've gotten older and take things more seriously? Or do i keep making that mistake of continuously overthinking things, that's why I'm always tired? Sometimes, even during my prayer time, I feel like I'm rambling and I don't get anywhere with my thoughts... And even when I pat myself on the back for what i've accomplished so far, deep inside I doubt the value of those accomplishments.
And then i tell myself this is a phase. or i just need a vacation soon. or that i just need to take it one day at a time, and soon everything will come to pass.
Hay, the things we tell ourselves...
i have no idea where i'm going with this post, just rambling again.
i don't feel negative. i don't feel positive either. often, my feelings and thoughts are a jumble, i have a hard time keeping track of what it is i really feel or think.
well, actually, i'm positive most of the time, but i find myself thinking later on - i'm just doing that to get through the day, but when it's time to end the day, i find myself thinking about not-so-positive things.
another busy work season ahead.
not sure if i'll continue with my strama class (my last, btw, before i formally get that MBA degree) cause timing's off and my prof, turns out, is one of those oh-no-not-him profs... not sure if i even want an MBA degree anymore... sigh.
i do want a vacation. i really do need to get lost so i can find myself again (or is that just one of those sayings?)
do what you love... and do it often... if you are looking for the love of your life, stop... they will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love... stop overanalyzing... travel often... getting lost will help you find yourself... life is about the people you meet... and what you create with them... so go ahead and start creating...
i used to think i was abnormal because i don't really get teary-eyed at weddings. even if i keep focusing on the fact that "omg, this is such a touching moment for the bride and groom" - the tears just won't come, even when i forced them to. Haha!
After a few weddings, i just stopped trying to emote - what can i do? i guess the same way people can't stop the tears from flowing, i can't wipe the giddy smile off my face. I am way too happy seeing two people in love take that brave step of finally tying the knot, with God, their family and friends as witnesses. You will usually see me with my hands clasped together, as if praying, craning my neck as much as I can to get a good view of the bride and groom (the craning-neck part is mostly because I don't sit upfront and some people (usually taller than me) obstruct my view), and yes, my teeth all bared because of a big big smile.
Pao used to kid me about being heartless because all the other girls were crying, except for me haha.
But you know what does make me teary-eyed?
It's the proposals. Yup. Most especially those that are planned oh-so-meticulously - because then you can definitely see how much effort went into just getting a one-word answer - and how much that one word is all too important...
What got me to post was the last two proposals I got to watch the past week, when yes, at my desk, i tried to hide my happy tears :p haha!
it's been quite awhile since I wrote an entry (i think my posts lately have started with that). But at least now I write with a purpose! I write to celebrate my baking skills!
Yahoo!!! In an effort to save as well, my Christmas giveaways were various baked goodies i made over the weekend: oatmeal cookies, banana-choco cookies, cream cheese walnut cookies, choco-chip cookies (which got the most raves) and carrot cupcakes (which won favorites)! eet wuz a CRRRAAYYZZZIEEE BAKING SPREEEEE! hahaha!
Above is a baked goodies set i gave to my closest friends in the office :) These are the same friends who endured tasting my initial baking efforts - might i add some of which were quite disastrous?! haha!
1) yung cookies na parang pinirito ko by flipping it haha - nagworry kasi akong di maluto yung ibabaw na part kaya binaliktad ko heehee
2) yung cupcake ko na maraming icing... CRUNCHY icing nga lang! hahaha! pano i used regular sugar, instead of the powdered one. hahahah! bawat kagat talaga, maingay sa bibig! :p
3) yung cookies na tutong. kasi i was stubborn about following the 8-10 minutes-instruction so I left the cookies longer in the oven
4) lastly and most recently, there were some carrots i failed to grate (kasi maliit na and i couldn't grate them anymore) and so i chopped them up na lang. gulay na gulay! hahaha! i mixed all the carrots in na when i realized we had a food processor hehe. so some cupcakes had some buo-buong carrots haha! o diba, all natural! no preservatives in this one! haha!
Thanks also to Pao who would always say that my stuff was good and worthy to sell :D I always gave him the best ones in the batch though hehe.
Thanks also to Mara who ate the rejects all the time! hahaha! Plus her friends now know me as the pretty ate who bakes great cookies hehe (feelingera ako!)
Hayyy it was such a journey for me - weh, nagdrama!? But seriously though, I love every tiring minute when I bake. It is such a joy for me that it only takes 8-10 minutes to find out if I did well (as opposed kasi to cooking, sometimes I get impatient waiting for it to cook!). Sabi nga ni Mara, "awww ate, may hobby ka na!" Indeed!
I would also like to thank Ms Trish cos she got me this book - Martha Stewart's COOKIES. So I've been trying those recipes every now and then. Yay! I was even more thankful when Mara told me how much it costs. Nyaha!
I've done cupcakes as well because I like small and sweet treats, but I'd like to try baking full-sized cakes as well :D Kaso next year na siguro yun hehe.
Would you believe the most bonggang item in my wishlist is not a gadget anymore but a new oven?! Hala, i'm growing up na talaga!
Overall, I'm really thankful that I've found something that I enjoy, the fruits of which others can enjoy as well. O diba, parang purpose in life lang? Hehe.
The best news though is that I got my first paying customer! Yay! Ben Fincale ordered a batch of 30 choco chip cookies! I'm not sure how much I'm going to charge him yet, but most likely it'll be the cost of ingredients plus a bit of TLC lang :) Buena manong presyo! haha! I hope I do not disappoint :)
If you guys want a batch (either of cookies or cupcakes), it's going to be cheap for now, so let me know! haha! I'm willing to experiment if you have a request! :) Nga lang, I can't promise the pretty stuff yet (may design ek-ek - waley pa ko sa ganung level! haha!)
That's it for now. Wish me luck! :)
And I hope you guys have a really merry Christmas! My Christmas wish for you is to find that something you would love to do with your time so you can enjoy life to the fullest! :)
The bittersweetness of everyday experiences using fairytale fancy, taking viewers to a jaded dreamland where everything and anything can happen - except for those one’s heart actually desires.
maybe the reason why it's been so hard for me to pray lately - is because i don't know exactly what to pray for. strength sure. but strength to do what?
it's hard to keep pushing forward without any expectations in your head. or maybe it's just me and i'm wired that way. i guess i just grew up with the notion that if i do this today, i will reap whatever tomorrow.
ok, so nothing turns out the way you expect it to - does it mean i should get ready for the worst? self-fulfilling prophecy danger!
haysh, all i know is it's so hard to be stuck in limbo, when i'd much rather give it my all - but memories of past pains are hindering me from doing so.
yes. i blog when i'm emo.
add the fact that Steve Jobs just died and that just makes this day even gloomier :(
i haven't been to this site for SOOOO long. i'm not even sure if i should still be maintaining it. i have a huge backlog of pictures to post - and i'm not due to post those anytime soon since i've had our internet connection at home cut off. I don't go home everyday anymore, i've continued to rent a place in Makati. Mara is renting near UST as well so no one is going to use the Internet on the weekdays - not until my mom becomes Internet-savvy - well, fat chance of that happening haha! anyway, staying in Makati really is loads more convenient especially since i'm back to studying again - but i guess it's more to avoid the stress that's related to going home. For those who know me very well, you would already know what i'm talking about - it goes beyond the 1 hour or so travel time back and forth type of stress. heehee.
anyway, my mom is due back from the States from a month-long vacation. I'm hoping it did her loads of good and i can't wait for her pasalubongs :) i'm also in the process of getting a ticket for lola so that she can stay with us again. I miss my cute lola :) I especially love it when she sings the English version of Lupang Hinirang hehe. I can't wait to spend more time with family soon - after living quite independently for so long, it has been very refreshing and relaxing to spend time with family, so that's a super good thing. Just this weekend, my tita and cousin helped me get the house all cleaned up and I was super happy listening to them share stories about the family. My extended family is quite interesting to talk about - actually similar to how i feel when i watch showbiz oriented talk shows haha!
I'm on my second to the last semester for my MBA. I will be graduating real soon and I'm excited for all this to be done finally! I've got a couple of exams lined up this week - which is a pain because turns out i have to read a whole book to prepare for it. Torture. Sometimes i wonder why i put up with this, and then i realize - yup, i'm a nerd.
I've climbed the ladder, so to speak, professionally, but I've yet to see if it's worth it. Nevertheless, I've found a reason to wake up much earlier, and it's really to lead a team with so much promise :) So far, that'll keep me going, even if i keep wondering about what I'm worth on the market. Besides, I'll decide on next steps professionally after I've graduated from my MBA. Right now, i'm just happy to win the respect and trust of the people I work with.
Mara is doing very well with her studies. My heart bursts with so much pride (totoo!) whenever I see her plates - she really is a talented artist and i'm proud to be the one who supports her all the way. She's been a teenager for quite sometime, but it's only now that she's starting to really become a teenager. She's always been a kid, and she's liked it that way, but now she's really beginning to show signs of "growing up". I can't help but say that a huge part of who she is is because of me - haha! mayabang! but really, i'm very happy with the way we are, how she confides in me and how she seeks my advice, how, at the end of the day, we have each other - and that can be enough to go through life. Cool right? I really hope i can have a relationship like that with my kids someday :)
Now, I guess it's safe for me to just say that - for the past year i've matured and grown up more. I've proven that I can put other people's interests (people who are not family) before mine. That I can be patient. That I can be upset but not be crazy about it. It's frustrating to try and understand something - but you still can't get it, can't get the reasons right, can't get things solved in an instant, can't keep things the way they were even if you want to. but i've learned before that you just gotta let go and let God do His thing. and now that's what i'm going to do. He has been very good to me all these years. Even all those trials that I had to go through - they had to mean something right? And they did. All of that has made me stay sane through the years. I guess sometimes, that's just what we need. To stay sane. To keep going. To keep living. Looking at where I've ended up today - I'd say God did a pretty darn good job on me.
We all have our ways just so we can keep going. What works for me may not work for you. What works for me isn't necessarily the best way. We go through life and we discover those ways - along with those things that challenge us, inspire us and spark life in us.
I'm just thankful for all the things that came my way - the things AND people that have been sources of my happiness, motivation and inspiration... hey, even those that have been sources of depression and anger and all the other negatives. And most of all, I'm thankful that I can be thankful - that I can be in this state of serenity (though not all the time - i'm still far from that hehe) - have all these realizations about myself and about life in general - and be thankful...
I'm not sure what the future holds, nobody knows, but I will stay faithful. :)
...that time i dread because i will be a slave to work again. even if i tell myself i will not be. even when i'm preparing myself to not be.
i've enrolled in two classes this trimester. about time! i need to finish my MBA already, lest i forfeit all the units i've taken. i need to finish this within the year! my heart's not totally in it, but my mind tells me this is what i have to do. i took pretty easy classes though so i'm thinking i just have to be alert, alive, awake and enthusiastic during the classes and i'll be fine.
i've rented a place in makati. a few minutes walk to the office and a short ride to school. and it's a shorter drive for pao. lessens mother-daughter clashes by a mile too. everyone wins, i hope. oh, i forgot about Mara, who will be stuck home alone most of the time since it's summer. but i bet she'll be busy practicing on her art or wasting time online or watching tv and movie downloads so no big deal. no need to give her allowance so yay for me :D that goes to my rent!
i just got my wisdom tooth pulled out - so i've been eating ice cream everyday, or making milkshakes... sweeet. but i've been cooking a lot too - so i forget the pain. weird that i seem to have gotten much better at cooking when i can't taste what i'm cooking (my tongue feels like it's on anesthesia forever). i have two more days on leave so aside from cooking, i'll need to clean up my room and prepare for my annual exodus - pack up my clothes and some other essentials...
i'm rambling. it's just a confusing time honestly. it seems i've got everything planned out but it doesn't really feel like it. there are times when i know i should be giving my all, but then i start to question things then i resolve to be apathetic. i guess that statement makes sense only to me, i can't really be more specific about it or else it becomes more real - and consequently more depressing.
you'd think at this age, i'd know what i'm doing with my life. i just got better at doing some things, and i guess i became more mature... but i still have no idea where i'm headed... or how i'm supposed to go there (where ever "there" is)... or why i'm even bothered to think about these things.
sheesh.
but maybe that's really how life is supposed to be: a continuous stream of uncertainty. maybe this is how my life is supposed to pan out.
goodness, how dramatic. see me rolling my eyes in frustration.
everyday i am still thankful though because i know i am still so very blessed. ironic that this very fact brings a certain amount of pressure to succeed and give back. but hey, whoever said life was easy?
i've just realized this: i arrange my closet almost every other week. is that weird?
no, it's not because i'm obsessed with my clothes or anything. it's also not because i have to get rid of stuff to make space for the ones i buy. it's more because when i'm in a rush in the morning, i just keep snatching clothes off the closet, trying them on, piling the rejected "outfits" on the bed, and then piling it back on my closet so that my mom won't find my room in shambles when she takes a peek for her customary "cleanliness inspections"... i've been scolded one too many times, and i am exactly like those makalat people on TV who pile up everything in their closet and hope it doesn't pop open :p
and every time i rearrange my closet, fold my clothes properly, group them by type, hang those that may get wrinkly, i know i need to declutter. about a fourth of my clothes i don't wear anymore - either they're out of style, would look cute on me again if i just did some exercise, or it's something i just can't part with for some strange reason.
i've been meaning to sell some of these clothes or give them away - but during these closet-arranging sessions, i get hooked on something (either my ipod, a book i pick up, some tv show that's on, or some stuff i find in my closet that makes me reminisce or what) - and i don't get to really finish what i started (making my to-sell, to-give, to-keep-muna-since-i-don't-plan-to-wear-it-anytime-soon piles, that is).
and so, i swear i just realized this, it's been a cycle for me. with a few items added to the closet every now and then, there really is a pressing need to finally do this once and for all!
and this is me procrastinating and getting hooked on something else, instead of finally finishing the closet clean-up. nyahaha!
maybe i just really like the clutter? of course it's a pain when i have something in mind to wear and i can't find it at once, or when i find something i'd like to wear but geez, i have to iron it because it's been buried under the pile. But arranging my clothes is something that de-stresses me as well. i won't be able to "de-stress" that way if it's all neat right?
or maybe i just need a bigger closet. haha! that third area on the right is for some old clothes, and my luggages, maybe i need to expand to that area? hmmm...
it's been refreshing to blog again by the way. i've been meaning to write here, but sometimes life gets in the way plus the stuff i've been writing about recently are way too cheesy so i just keep that stuff to myself :p
gaaah, but i do really need to stop this cycle sometime soon. if my clothes had feelings, they must not be too happy about me. hayyyy... dee-sas-turrrr...
I'm waiting for my ISS Christmas party photos to upload so i thought i'd do my wishlist again. Not that i expect people to get them for me - my family's not big on major christmas gifts, since we have more important things to spend on - so it's really more like an annual eenie-meenie-mini-moe for me of what i want to buy for myself for the new year heehee.
so here goes :)
#1. On the top of my list is a Krups coffee maker. Haha, I'm partial to Krups because their most famous for their coffee makers, so they must have great products, right? No one in my family really loves coffee enough to invest in such - 3-in-1 lang, masaya na sila hehe. My recent haul of freshly ground coffee beans in Baguio has sparked this desire to go out and buy one for the house - maski ako lang ang talagang gagamit.
#2. Sims3 + expansion packs. I know I had Sims 3 on my wishlist before it launched 2 years ago. And I was able to play it a month after it came out naman - however, because my hard disk crashed before (haha guess which game is the culprit!) - and the installed OS was Vista, i couldn't play it anymore :( And then i got busy with life without Sims3 and so i forgot all about it but i recently found out there are LOTS of expansion packs na and I'm all thirsty for Sims3 :(
I have a couple of options. I can install 2 operating systems in my laptop (well, Mara's laptop - since i gave that one to her na) - add XP along with Vista, so that we won't have to reinstall all over again. I can also buy a PC that's Sims3 compliant, since we still have our monitor gathering dust in the computer table. The third option is just a dream haha, but it would be so cool to have one... that brings me to my next wish...
#4 Macbook Air. Ever since I saw this one, I've salivated over it. Haha! Ang expensive naman kasi! Plus, i know zilch about Macs, nangangain ng tanga sa umpisa ang Mac e! pero pero it's just soooo pretty and powerful at the same time! Ini-imagine ko pa lang na naka-Macbook Air ako habang nagsi-Sims3, asa langit na ako :p
#4. I want to buy comfy platforms/ wedge shoes! I've had an ongoing hunt for the perfect platforms/ wedge shoes ever since the last quarter of the year, when i realized my favorite platforms AND wedge shoes don't look as pretty as they were before. :( Medyo worn out na sila pareho. Sigh. It's rare to find comfortable shoes of this kind kaya! Although I spent more for them than I usually would on a pair of shoes, nasulit ko naman din talaga dahil madalas ko silang nagamit at sumaya naman talaga ako dahil tumatangkad ako, salamat sa kanila. hehe. So now, everytime i go out, i am on the look out for nice wedges/ platforms. kaso so far, epic fail pa den :( sigh.
#5. iPod Touch! haha! last year ko pa to balak! kaso when i got a great deal on a Dell Latitude notebook and a Canon digital camera, yun na ang inuna ko! hehe. My iPod nano (red) is still alive but it's itching to be replaced haha! plus i've been looking forward to the games i can play with an iPod touch! haha! bata lang! :p plus it now has Facetime and HD video recording, which makes it sooo awesome. Hay, how can i be poor and technophile at the same time? It's a curse :( hehe...
#6. More travels! This year was a great year for travelling for me - moreso because I have a new travel buddy =D I went to Roxas, Boracay, Batanes, Bohol, Singapore, Sagada and Baguio this year. haping hapi lumayas! Plus I go home to Bicol with the family this December, so that covers Legaspi and Sorsogon yay! :D More wanderlust for 2011!!! Too bad, i didn't get to book the cheap travel fare to Paris c/o AirAsia! haha! Di bale, 2011 is for more travels in the country and Asia pa din! I'm planning Vietnam/ Cambodia, another Bangkok trip, and Shanghai or Beijing sana! Praying for Japan - pero nakakatamad kasi maglakad ng papers e :p I have miles expiring this December and i still don't have a clue where to go!
so far, i've got 6 on my wishlist. I won't add a Canon DSLR anymore, since i realized that's on Mara's wishlist, and not mine hehe. I'm happy with being trigger-happy. :p
aaannnd just in time for the completion of my uploaded photos, this entry is done :) isipan nyo pa ko ng iba! :D
Canon IXUS 130 Dell Latitude 2100 they look sooo good together, along with blackberry bold onyx, all in sleek and sexy black... my red iPod is dying to be replaced. haha!
so now i'm close to broke. money left will be for Bohol this weekend... and Singapore two weeks after. haha! after that trip, wala na talaga akong datung!
i guess with everything that's been happening in my life for the past year, i haven't quite had the luxury of really taking the time to think about things, putting them into words AND typing it out for the WWW to see.
during my struggle back to what turned out to be an awesome single life, i started to write - old fashioned dear diary style. kinda transported me back to highschool/ college days haha. i would write about my day, how i felt, highlights, plus people who made an impact on me. to cap it all off, the last "chapter" was dedicated to cheesy moments when Pao was still courting me. but i guess more notable were my conversations with God - which i rarely put into writing - but which i've found to be very much helpful as i continued on my journey dedicated to letting go and letting God. It was more of an introspection, hence writing it in a recycled notebook and hiding it in a locked cabinet made it more about what i thought about myself, my life and my God - and less about putting my thoughts out there for everyone to read, react on or relate to.
i'm not sure if i'll be able to do this regularly again - as i've grown, i've realized that there are things, events and emotions which are pretty much better imprinted in your memory, rather than on a blog. though it's funny to read through old entries and take pride in how much you've grown, i guess there is some truth to the saying life is meant to be lived... and sometimes i feel moments spent in writing them out can be a waste - but then i'm fickle and impulsive - so that opinion can change in - say, two minutes haha. blogging is still quite therapeutic... i guess it still depends on the mood i'm in.
oh what a nonsense post this still is. haha, some things never change :)
what a lazy sunday afternoon. it's raining hard outside. i was supposed to spend the afternoon with the 2 people i love the most but the plans sadly fell through because of the stupid rain :( really bummed about that.
to top it off, i feel a slight sprain on my wrist - i think it's time to visit that therapy clinic Sarah and Pam have been going to. i wish though that i can spend all the time in the world to do only the things i like - when will i be that lucky?
sometimes i find a hundred reasons to complain about - but i do believe my life is going in the direction it's supposed to go. I just need to keep making good decisions and hope that i remain to be a good influence on other people... eww what a goody goody statement. haha.
anyway, i have that Bohol trip with my officemates and Pao, i can't wait to go snorkeling in that beautiful beach again. and then i have that Singapore trip with my family in September :D my new laptop will be in my hands on Monday and i'm hoping it's a worthy investment. i also have to (yes, have to!) buy a camera soon - really soon. if not for the Bohol trip, then for the Singapore trip! Mara's raking in the expenses as well for her course - sheesh - but i am happy that she's enjoying herself and i trust that she will strive to do her best and not make bad decisions. Let my very supportive presence be a constant reminder (or a driving conscience hehe) for her to do so.
i'm gonna stop here cause my mind is drawing a blank and i want to see Miles again (haha, this weird artist that reminds me of Pao in a reality TV show ala-project runway but for artists).
hoping to have a eureka moment soon so i can share it with the world :)
parang wala ako sa Pilipinas! will upload more pics as i steal the ones i like from the ones who brought cameras! i still havent bought a camera! sheesh! pero ok lang, masmadami tuloy akong picture kasi ako ang kinukunan bwahaha! lavset! :p
We like someone because. We love someone although. - Henri De Montherlant
Maybe true love is a decision. You know, a decision to take a chance with somebody. To give to somebody. Without worrying whether they’ll give anything back. Or if they’re gonna hurt you, or if they really are the one. Maybe love isn’t something that happens to you. Maybe it’s something you have to choose. - from the movie "Love and Other Disasters"
You may not be his first, his last, or his only. He loved before, he may love again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break— his heart. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you. - Bob Marley
Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something: they’re trying to find someone who’s going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take. - Anthony Robbins
Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be will end up good and what is not won’t. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don’t lose something real. Always fight, until you can’t anymore, and then be fought for. - unknown
it's so easy to let yourself be all high - immerse yourself in that pink bubble feeling - secure that you can stay there for a while and no one will ruin the moment for you because it's all warm and fuzzy...
i know my 6 weeks aren't up yet (6 weeks daw e!), but for a second there - i just felt it. that prick of a needle that wants to burst your bubble - pero buti na lang hindi matulis enough to make it pop.
siguro i'm overthinking again (hello, 1am and still working at the office. loser.) - pero it scares me.
the past few weeks, i don't think i've gotten over my fears - i think i just pushed them aside into a corner. so now i'm praying for courage again.
because when you have something so beautiful, it's when you have so much to lose. the pressure of not screwing it up can be intense. i know i shouldn't be thinking about all that, and that i should just be happy and just live - and love - and laugh, blah blah blah.
but i still think about the what ifs.
and i think about work. and how i should not be thinking about anything else for now. haha.
and i think about my family. and how i should not let myself give too much to anyone else.
but i can't help it.
it scares me that i may be falling into the same trap. but i just can't help it.
because i can't help but believe that this is it.
it's a wonderful feeling to let yourself fall for someone and love them with all you have.
but it's scary - soooo scary that it may mean you haven't learned anything at all.
ang gulo ko ba :p
God bahala ka na ulit sakin. Kung sakali naman, sasaluhin Mo naman ako diba?
